Requiem

Remixed beat from Requiem for a Dream movie:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mmdCZLCoP94

i was, caught up in a scheme
trying to, attain my dreams
number one lessons that, nothings what it seems
traitorous snakes, hiding on my team
a vicious crew with a sick gangsta lean
waiting at the corner preying on the dope fiends
u aint got a clue so its now a mystery
torture u like the lady from King's misery
ima rewrite ur entire history
stack enough to still on u w/ my salary
some advice my enemies never took to heart
i tutor my adversaries so they keep to par
its the art of war, niggas get torn apart
by a soldier learning from battlefield scars
a world trade survivor pushed to the edge
plotting schemes in my head ready for revenge

i let, the haters get to me
i turned, to the hennessey
coz thug passions always been all my remedies
the devil sure as hell runs in the family
im a convict released on strict stipulations
first to cross my path gonna be in a situation
3 counts coz i was under suspicion
ran my game tight, so u couldnt fuck w/ these
5ks tryna front like they own the streets
i aint here for telling, pull my file i can take the heat
wiretaps had me selling x-t-c
01 is my year of conspiracy
slanging ex by the G's is how i conspired
60 large by the lines and now im retired
couple more months and my hustle woulda fired
coz doing business i aint never ever getting tired

i was, out of control
i was, ever so cold
like those pocket aces u cant fold
thats how the story went, just like christ
the classics done told if ur men or mice
till death do me part w/ the federal info
used to do lines that was white as snow
its dangerous to stay alive in the ghetto
forget all the shit u learned and what u know
never seen the atrocities of the world below
bitches running game and they jack ur dough
got caught up in a world of trouble
tryna break even in the daily struggle
paying debts and making way w/ arms and elbow
the thug philosophy carries nines and ammo
a 10 yr minimum aint no joke
already done paid for all the drugs i sold
worth more than my weight in 24 karat gold
step on my toes and i'll murder ur soul
assassinate ur character with words from this flow

I Bleed

a rhyme I wrote, there's a youtube link to the beat

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zIfDZ_ww0CY&feature=channel

im only playing with the hand that was dealt to me
in the care of lady luck, im a living prophecy

tryna make the best from a petty life of greed
escaping from the grasp of my realities

my addictions to the underground never ceased
temptations never setting me fully free

i battled with the beast within for eternity
please let me be, the last of a dying breed

this eternal hell and pain isnt meant to be
witnessed by the faculties of mentality

caged soul bound by the shackles of treachery
cold as ice as my eyes witness this tragedy

lies from the lips you love on a path of misery
hips and thighs mesmerize got you acting differently

so i bleed so i bleed so i bleed

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i shoulda asked for some proof of paternity
but they dont gauge another man's veracity

you have to see for yourself past hypocrisy
picking up empty promises to the third degree

everything nowadays happens for a reason see
destiny runs its course even with disbelief

im a learned cynic tagged with a felony
never led astray by the off key melodies

i cant help but pity the parody
of a man reaching desperately for his family

he's not worth any more mention lyrically
he's as good as dead to me, mentally, physically

i repent for a life of immoral deeds
got me wondering if im nothing but an evil seed

quicksand drowning in the doubts of self deceit
never giving up at the cruel hands of defeat

breathe for another day, better times painlessly
there will be time for redemption thankfully

lessons from a fallen soldier on the battlefield
is it true when they say that every wound heals

new york to cali i give you a rhapsody
classical portrait of a broken family

so i bleed so i bleed so i bleed

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i do have to say i chose my path selfishly
fear the cold wrath of a man waiting patiently

surrounded by deceptive masks of heresy
how can a single man overthrow fallacies

conformity with the masses is policy
contract killings are the norm, no compliancy

so rest in peace or agree with the Agency
learn to shut your mouth and not speak blatantly

eyes shifty coz the world is your enemy
if you can't beat em, join em coz you're outta strategies

nothing ever is what it first seems to be
number one lesson learned in a conspiracy

in a cube 9 by 9 dying with a cellie
sharing 9 square feet coz i used to sell ecstasy

23 and 1, going crazy in solitary
serving us trash and green expired meat

consequences of the past finally catching up to me
its time to pay the piper he wasnt sworn to secrecy

progression of the world at the cost of purity
corruption is the bane of a lost humanity

intricate patterns of behavior like a tapestry
and every word i say, know i say it factually

so i bleed so i bleed so i bleed

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tragic memories from a child lost at sea
passed down in my genes from my ancestry

its a never ending circle in a cycle viciously
thats the burden of the curse of my family

bound by the chains of time, can we break free?
can we see the light of day, smiling happily?

maybe many days, far from now eventually
but it will likely never be a probability

so i bleed so i bleed so i bleed